Fuck off

I don't know what to do, Will I ever see you again? Do you love me? Do you not? Do I still love you? I think so, but why I'm trying to hide it, why are we so stupid that we had to get into this fucking situation to realise that we love each other? God Damnit, I should be greatfull, I had a second oportunity, but why is it taking so much pain from me? I gave her a second Oportunity and she didn't have to do anything, but it looks like I can't get the same benefits, for some weird reason...
I'll have to wait, but for what? Am I slowly dying? Or just waiting for my reborn?
Fuck Off. Time goes by so fucking slowly, and I need the answer... Help God! Help whoever you are, help me! I need a guide, something, a signal... I need to see that this is working... and I'm not just wasting my time... Well...
The time is the only ruller now, he is my God and he is playing with me as If I were his puppet. Well, let's see how this great movie ends out.
Kisses... I will need more than that!
May the force be with me childs, I'll need it. I'll need it all.